Good lord have I got a ton of work to do. I have the Step 1 worksheet I've been working on all week. I had to go buy a spiral notebook today b/c I need all that extra room to write! My friend T. says I should say I'm a "recovering" Sex and Love addict, as he used to say he was a "recovering" alcoholic in his AA meetings. Yeah, possibly, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it, meanwhile I'm suffering through extreme painful withdrawal right now! No fucking fun!
The good news is that I know each day will get better and I spoke to a women from the Monday night meeting a little while ago when I was in tears who told me I will NEVER go through this again. Wow, that's heavy. They also said on Mon. nite that the program has pretty much a 100% success rate of everyone who finishes the steps. I believe. I believe!!!
No Club Remix tonite, I'm so tired and Enor is bummed due to the death of an old boss/father figure and I had rehearsal last nite and got SLAA meeting tomorrow followed by meeting w/sponsor and then I leave town on Fri to go to the Leo gig so I need a damn nite to myself this week. I am definitely looking forward to a Saturday of R&R at the ranch though. I hope to sleep in, read, go swimming, relax, play the evening gig, and make it home safe late Sat. night. I gotta come back 1 day early b/c I have to work a security shift from 8:30-4p on Sun. Sheesh.
Need to relax tonite. Read, write, work on the worksheet, pick out my outfits to get ready to pack, and just breathe. And love and pet Scotty Star of course.
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