Monday, April 30, 2012

6 1/2 Weeks, Roughly

So wow, that Dr. appt on Friday was the most incredible of my life and that still feels like understatement. My Dr. told me I was 6 weeks and 1-3 days, and she did an ultrasound and I saw my baby's heart beat!!! I knew it would have a heart bulge but I didn't know we'd be able to see it beating already! OMG. I was overwhelmed. I wanted to cry but I was too shocked, really. Then she printed out 3 little pictures of the baby for me which of course I immediately took a pic of and sent to Reggie, via text msg! She gave me a due date of Dec. 18!

When I told her I was going to explore birthing with a midwife she gave me a recommendation to the St. Luke's hospital midwives. Today I made an appt for an orientation there for Weds. 5/16. My Dr. told me the baby looked good but she still wanted me back in 2 weeks because of my age and she just wants to take another look then and make sure everything is still ok. I want Reggie to come w/me so he can see the heart beat but he is usually working in the afternoon so the earliest I could arrange an appt where we can both go is Thurs. 5/17. That's almost 3 weeks but I'm sure a few days is not that much of a difference right now to tell us what we need to know.

Reggie and I sat with his mother yesterday for a brief visit, since I'd only met her twice before. I've been showing the ultrasound pic to our close friends/family that know. A few close F.O.B.'s (Friends of the Band) who I feel I can trust and who were wondering why I wasn't drinking at our gigs this past weekend were let in on the secret too.

I feel (and look) bloated around my middle, which has always been my problem area anyway. I'm still tired a lot and I'm even colder than usual, still. I wanted to cry at our House of Blues gig on Thursday, it was so unreasonably cold in there!!! I've been carrying around my leather jacket b/c I am just COLD COLD COLD everywhere. Still no real nausea to speak of, although on Sat. night after our gig I was a little hungry but then on the drive home my mouth started to salivate a bit like I might throw up, but it went away and the hunger did too. On the way TO the gig I made Reggie stop at McD's so I could get a vanilla cone. The baby needed it, LOL!

Today I started taking these kickass prenatal vitamins my Dr. gave me a sample of. There's 3/day, well 1 vitamin and the other 2 are DhA and anti-nausea Vitamin B6. They're $55 for a 3-month supply but nothing is too good for my baby and you better believe I shot over my credit card toot suite. Reggie and I are still discussing names. I told him not to tell anyone our name choices b/c everyone is going to have their opinion and I don't want to hear it. But whatever name it will be it will be unique, meaning one of a kind.

Monthly sheriff meeting tonite in Atascocita, such a long drive, sob! Can't wait to get home and get into bed. Reggie cleaned my whole kitchen top to bottom last week, took him 5 hours. I think HE'S the one with the nesting syndrome kicking in, LOL! I love him and it's clear he's crazy about me.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Whatever Week this is--5? 6?

The Due Date Calculators online all tell me different things. I have an extremely short cycle, 21-25 days. Yes, I get my period every 3 weeks, typically. Sometimes it's even 20 days. So the online calculators don't know what to do with me, exactly. I'll see my Dr. on Friday and we'll iron it out then, I'm sure. For now I've gotten online EDD's (Estimated Due Dates) of Dec. 22, Dec. 18, Dec. 11, etc. When I told my mom on Sat. at family brunch she said she hopes it's born on her Bday, Dec. 13. Yes, that'd be cool!!!

Reggie told his mom last night. She cried and was happy but of course was concerned about us and our future, like any good mom would be. When he told me her reaction over the phone I even teared up a little. I've only met her twice. She told me I have beautiful eyes--aww! So now my goal is to spend some time w/her which is hard b/c both of our schedules are crazy insane busy. I have 7 gigs this week, including 2 on Saturday. Whew!

My brother has been supportive and giving me good counsel and advice. He says I need to slather myself in cocoa butter, putting it EVERYWHERE, even my teeth if necessary! LOL. I bought some Palmer's yesterday. Guess it's never too early. Also he is going to put me in touch with his midwife friend. Yes, I hate hospitals, what with the nurses and their filthy filthy hands and they're gonna make me wear that awful gown and they'll tell me when/what to eat and I want my own music pumped in during labor/birth and I want to deliver squatting if I damn feel like it, etc. etc., and don't want to give birth in a hospital! But I'm skittish about a home birth due to my AMA ("Advanced Maternal Age"--oh the humanity!) so I'm thinking a birthing center is the way to go. The problem is, I can't find any located in the Central Houston area, WTF!!! And I do NOT want my baby born anywhere but Houston (i.e, there's birthing centers nearby in Pearland and Pasadena but NO thank you). Sigh, to be continued...

Good potential news about my pregnancy: my mom says she didn't gain much weight, only about 20 lbs. which is exactly my goal too! Also she says she never got carpal tunnel, something I was worried about since I only want to take a week off from the band. However she did say she was sick 24/7, but so far I have only had a few seconds of nausea here and there.

My bandmates know now. On Saturday at our gig, while soloing, Paul leaned over and asked me point blank if I was pregnant. I said I was late. Then I said I'd had 2 positive tests. Apparently he and Chop had been discussing it, noting how I wasn't drinking anymore and how I'd asked Chop to not smoke onstage. I told them to keep it secret. Not sure when/how I'll start announcing it, most likely it'll be a big Facebook announcement. I called Scott last nite, told him, and asked if he'd draw a creative cartoon that I can use to announce it and he said he'd start thinking of ideas. Aw, that'd be awesome!!!

Gigging tonite and am stressed about people smoking near me. Gig Weds., gig Thursday hopefully w/Leo at the House of Blues (rehearsal was canceled last nite as he was sick from the chemo and steroids), gig Friday, and 2 gigs Saturday. Sunday is the final day of I-Fest. Reg and I had a killer time there on Sat, seeing Ruthie Foster and Los Lonely Boys. Actually last nite I was kinda glad rehearsal was canceled so I could go home and lie on the couch until bedtime, which is what I did.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Positive

Loving Reggie has been wonderful the past 2 months. (We started dating on Feb. 15, although I didn't know our 1st "date" was a date. He however, had other plans! :))

This past Monday I stopped off at Walgreen's on the way home from work to pick up some fotos I'd ordered as a surprise gift for him--he'd been wanting some prints of some nice pics of me/us we'd been taking lately. Being a week and a half late for my period (and us having fun being "not safe" for the past month and a half) I figured I'd pick up a pregnancy test while I was there too. Why not. I didn't really know what to expect, especially since I had that incident from Dec. 2011-Jan 2012 when I didn't have a period for 2 months, and I kinda wondered if that was what was happening again now.

I had to pee really bad so when I got home I went to the downstairs powder room, whipped out the test w/out having time to read the instructions (I'd taken several tests last year but knew I needed to review how to read them), put the thing on the counter aka "flat surface" as directed, and immediately I already saw 2 lines. Uh, what does that mean again? I definitely had to review the instructions.

What!!! 2 lines means PREGNANT. Wait, am I reading that right? Let me double check. Let me triple check. Oh my God. For real?!?!? Wasn't it necessary to wait 2-10 minutes to get the results??? There's a line already!!! OMG. Wow. Well.... wow. Huh. And I smiled. And I felt happy. And I thought oh wow, I wasn't planning on seeing Reggie tonite but now I MUST see him and tell him. Still, there's test #2 which I will definitely take in the morning which is when the hormones are most potent. Wow. I was excited!!!

I called him, asked him if he wanted to go for a little walk/run on the bayou and he did, but then again he ALWAYS wants to see me. So he picked me up, we scooted down the street, and we'd just started our walk when he asked if I'd started my period yet. I pulled out my phone, as I'd taken a pic of the positive pregnancy test (b/c the instructions said don't read the result after 10 min. and I was wondering if the line would disappear or something), and showed it to him. It took him a few seconds to figure out what it was. He looked at me, his jaw dropped, and I told him it was definitely a positive pregnancy test. He immediately grabbed me for a big hug and told me how much he loved me. Of course, he also immediately felt scared/overwhelmed/excited, all the "correct" emotions any man would feel upon receiving this news.

I asked him if he wanted to spend the night so he could be there in the morning when I took test #2. So we finished our walk, grabbed a calzone from a great restaurant nearby, and went to my place. I wasn't really hungry, having eaten a banana when I got home but I had a small piece of calzone and then we shared a piece of the pecan pie we made on Sunday w/Hank's ice cream. While we slept I had a dream that test #2 came up negative and I was sad but I told Reggie in the dream, "We can keep trying." Of course, in the morning I took test #2 for real and again, immediately, without waiting 2 minutes it was a double line again. Pregnant!!!

Yesterday at work I did all kinds of research on 1st trimester. I did an online due date calculator which said my due date is Dec. 22 and I was in my 5th week. I'm still not sure how that works but I feel/think I'm more in my 4th week. I made an appt with my OB/GYN for next Friday, the earliest she could see me, and she'll confirm of course.

Here were my early symptoms:
  1. A week and a half late/possibly almost 2 weeks late on my period
  2. When Reggie and I went to Rockport 2 weekends ago I was EXHAUSTED and slept hours and hours both on Friday night and Saturday night when we were there, but also on Sunday night back at home and on Monday night as well. That was kinda strange and very unusual for me to sleep that many hours 4 nights in a row. 
  3. I've been feeling this strange cramping for the past week and a half 1-3 times/day that made me wonder if my period was about to start, but it never did. 
  4. Those annoying 3-4 lbs that I have (that every woman has) that comes and goes, comes and goes, came about 2 weeks ago and never left.
  5. My tits have been sore as well, again leading me to believe my period was about to start, but it never did. 
  6. About 4-5 times over the past week and a half I've felt a couple of seconds of nausea after eating, mostly in the afternoon. Again, this never happens to me.
 All day yesterday I was so happy and excited. Last night at the gig I asked Chopper to please not smoke onstage (told him I was "coming down with something" which is quite true!). And no more booze for me--AT ALL. (Reggie got me a Diet Coke from the bar and I kept calling it my "funky juice" [what I call my drink of choice, Crown & Diet] so Paul & Chopper wouldn't be suspicious.) I've told a couple of friends my period was late but for now have only told my brother and my program girlfriend Jess about the positive tests. Reggie doesn't want to tell anyone else until after the Dr. appt next week and I've agreed to honor his request, though it's HARD. I don't think anyone reads this blog anymore but I do want to go ahead and record what's going on with me b/c this is one of the most significant things to ever happen to me.