Well It Happened Again!

This reminds me of "The Continental", the character played on SNL by the brilliant Christopher Walken. He says, "Throw fine champagne in my face once, shame on you. Throw fine champagne in my face twice... shame on me!"

I guess it's a good thing I can have any sense of humor today. Because I broke up w/JR again last night. We basically spent most of the weekend fighting and I just Got Fucking Tired Of It. I am also tired of having to work on a damn relationship. I simply don't have it in me at this time of my life. I love JR, I really do. But I love myself more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There will be no sobbing in my office today. I feel relief about this breakup and as we say in law enforcement, that there is what we call a "clue." My heart hurts, sure. But he slept in my bed last night and I slept on my couch against his wishes b/c I was JUST DONE. I don't know what'll happen next, if he'll contact me later like he did the last time, or not. I can't think about it though, I just have to forge ahead. I have big huge large crazy fun plans this week, musical and with friends. Right now I just feel like a Big Fucking Sigh. Oh well... crap.

Now would be a good time to post the 8 Things I Will Demand of Anyone Who Wants to Date Me, or whatever a good title for the list would be. Lately I could only remember 7 but I remembered the 8th item last night! So here they is:

1. Financially solvent/secure w/401K, etc!
2. No kids
3. Social drinker
4. Accompanies me to my events, concerts, etc.
5. Knows Col. Angus and invites him to the party frequently (also see C. Walken, SNL skit)
6. Not a damn musician
7. Doesn't work weekends
8. My intellectual equal!
   

Anyway... the gig on Fri. went really well! I would say I played about 97% of the material correctly! I mean, we've only been rehearsing for a few weeks and there were just a couple of songs that had some tricky shit I hadn't nailed yet, but I did nail some of them at the gig and it was great! JR was a very sweet roadie/groupie for me and I will miss that. After the gig we raced outta there to the Iguanas show and I danced with my crazy friend Johnny until JR insisted I dance with him, which I was more than happy to do. But JR got pretty drunk and emotional and drama queen-ish later b/c I said "I don't know" when he asked if I would marry him someday! He had also requested that I not wear lipstick to my gig b/c he said I looked pretty enough without it. I already didn't wear my leather pants due to his demands. My guitarist and his girlfriend said JR must be very insecure. Hmm. But yes, I'll miss JR a hell of a lot. I sure won't miss my house smelling like cigarettes though along with a few other things I won't miss.

P.S. Also on Friday night I got text msg's from both LDB and SC! SC said he wished I were with him in Philly at the Chuck Prophet show. Later LDB texted that he was at the Iguanas show; when I texted back I was too (though JR and I were getting in my car to leave) he texted back "Wait!" but I was already driving off. I texted back that I'd see LDB Tues. (tomorrow) at his CD-release party at the Continental Club. But this also made me think, Hmm, the 2 guys I took home in October are both still contacting me and made me wonder if I'd taken any more guys home would I be getting all kinds of texts??? Also made me wonder if I might still enjoy playing the field a little more right now.