It's Complicated

So I am considering breaking up w/DA or at least telling him to leave me alone for awhile. I am ultra-sensitive these days and I have every right to tell people that treat me less-than-lovingly to take a walk off a short pier and hug an octopus. It's my world after all, and frankly you gotta be pretty fucking special to be allowed into it!!!

Meanwhile Stefano texts me every morning telling me how beautiful/hot/talented/smart/etc etc I am and how much he misses/craves/adores etc etc me. This a.m. he called to go over our Chicago itinerary before he booked the plane tix and hotel. God, he is so awesome!!! I texted him asking him if he's "heaven-sent" and he texted back that *I* was. He's so incredible and wonderful!!! And he just called me a minute ago to gush about me some more. We'll be hanging out on Fri. night and he'll be making stir-fry for me and I got to pick what I wanted on it and he constantly says how much he loves to pamper me. He makes me so happy, all the time, everytime!

So why am I so upset about DA? Like J2 asked, what does he have to offer me besides weekday cuddling and 3 Stooges? Well, I love having sex w/him. And he really is funny when he's not being a moody little 24-year old. And I enjoy spending time w/him and his family, who all seem to like me a lot; I mean, they're always inviting me over to do stuff with them. And we really do have fun together. And I love having him as my weekday/Sunday night boyfriend since Stefano is limited to Friday/Saturdays. But yeah, his behavior has been less than desirable lately and it's making me feel a little over him. He needs to learn there are consequences to snapping at me in front of his brother and saying that I'm "annoying" just b/c I asked if he was going to finish his wine a couple of times. Later he said he had a headache and I said that explained why he was acting kind of grouchy all evening. He apologized 3 times for snapping at me but when I left I did so w/out giving him a hug or kiss. This a.m. he texted me and apologized again but I don't want to talk to him. He knows he's in trouble.

I don't know. I think at the very least I may want to take some time off from him. He needs to show better appreciation for having me in his life, me driving down to his house and spending my valuable time with him. And if he doesn't straighten up then that's fine too. I can always find another boyfriend to replace him.