Heavy Heart

Lord, how my heart is heavy. These past couple days have been rough. Jon has been helping me, of course. I've spent the past 2 nights at his place. Tonight though I have got to make my batches of T-giving day sausage balls. It was Jon's idea to make them tonight so all I have to do on Thurs. a.m. is throw them in the oven and bake them--so we can sleep late together, I assume, before heading off to our family events. Tomorrow I won't be home AT ALL: Job #1 followed by Job #2 followed immediately by a cool blues show at this club I've never been to followed immediately by the blues jam at Big Easy. Jon's family will be there (he's picking up his youngest sis from the airport today) as well as his cool friends we had dinner with last week.

Unfortunately, it appears Stefano will also be there, at least he indicated so on the Facebooks. If he is there I need to have Leo get my gate clicker/house key back from him, and Jon and I are still playing it extremely cool. Stefano changed his FB status to "Single" today and of course lots of comments from our mutual friends and fellow musicians ensued. When I saw he did that I did the same thing but then I removed the status change post from my wall--trying to keep it as low-key as possible. Stefano sent me a text yesterday saying we needed to talk and he wanted me to come to his house tonight to do so, but I don't like the sound of that. I am so sad thinking of him and how I've crushed him. I mean it really, really hurts. It's bad/sad enough I will have to see him this Sat. at our shared gig. My brother will be there with me for support. Yes--I feel like a total heel.

Anyway. I guess one day we'll all get over this. This week should in fact prove to be activity-filled and promises to be very fun. Weds. will be killer, even if the jam is a little awkward at times. Thurs. I'll bake them balls and go to my beloved Aunt P's house. That evening I'll go up to Jon's sister's house for evening dessert/game time and meeting the rest of the family. Friday I may spend some of the afternoon rehearsing w/Leo, and Friday night is either 1. Patrol if Mudflap can do it, or 2. Family time w/Jon, or 3. Big Easy for a show. Saturday Los Lonely Boys are playing an afternoon free instore at the record store--awesommmmme!--and then that night is my gig. Sunday will also be sooooo fun as there's a great benefit at the Big Easy that Jon is playing but TODAY I got an invitation for US to open the show! I said HELL YES and notified the boys. Cool!!!

Lord, help me just get through this week. Seriously, I have begun to pray again, but it was time for me to start up again regardless.