Why did I eat it?

Because it was there! They brought in doughnuts to work today and I did not need to be eating one, but oh well. I made plans with myself to go running tonight anyway, so I guess that'll be an extra lap (or 2) I get to do.

Trying to decide if I should go on patrol tomorrow or not.

• PROS: I need to, since I have one makeup shift I need to do. The more I do it the better I get at it. I have the free time and should be taking advantage of it. I always have a good time and enjoy every minute of it.
• CONS: I fell asleep at 10pm last night meaning my body and mind are wiped out. I have several breakouts on my face meaning I am severely stressed. I would rather sleep in and relax all day instead of waking up at 5:30 am and getting all that gear on and driving 30 miles to the substation.

I'm sure I'll decide at the last minute.

S didn't even get home until after 10 last night. He went hobnobbing after work with the motorcycle sales guys to try to convince them to hire him on in that dept. where he has a chance of making some decent money, or at least, more than he's making now in the parts dept. He says it's pretty much a go, so hopefully he will make that transition very soon now! I didn't even get to spend any time with him last night since I was passed out when he got home. I haven't even seen our new digital camera yet. It probably didn't help that I had made a huge penne pasta cheesy beefy casserole for dinner and ate a whole bunch--S can't eat stuff like that! I had to freeze 1/2 of it b/c I can't eat all that by myself very fast.

I am feeling kind of excited b/c on Tuesday we go to court for Enforcement Hearing Part 2! I love facing the whore in court although seeing her ugly face always, as Tito J. would say, makes me throw up in my mouth a little bit. But when we are in court, that is MY territory and WE are the winners!!! I am praying so hard for the judge to throw her in jail like HE threatened to do and also, that we get immediate custody of the baby. I read Psalm 31:9-16 last night b/c it was my daily assignment from a pamphlet I got at church and man, did it hit home hard. We've all heard the expression "The Lord works in mysterious ways" but I am always surprised at the little signals and signs that He sends down to me all the time. Check it out:

9 Be merciful to me, O LORD, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief.
10 My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my bones grow weak.
11 Because of all my enemies, I am the utter contempt of my neighbors; I am a dread to my friends—those who see me on the street flee from me.
12 I am forgotten by them as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery.
13 For I hear the slander of many; there is terror on every side; they conspire against me and plot to take my life.
14 But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, "You are my God."
15 My times are in your hands; deliver me from my enemies and from those who pursue me.
16 Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love.

Man, that's poetry! Now, I'm no bible-thumper; in fact, I am embarrassingly unfamiliar with the Bible. (This from someone whose heathen father wrote an actual book report on the Bible when he was in high school.) But I swear, this stuff always makes me feel so much better. It brings about peace to me every single time. The last time I went to church and heard the sermon, it almost made me want to try to make peace with the whore and dickhead! But I won't do so, b/c you cannot reason with insane minds, and also, I am definitely not capable of being Christ-like in a lot of ways--yet. God's still working on me though, I feel Him, but I can't go there 100% yet.

For those friends of mine who might read this post and wonder what happened to the sinner Adela that they used to know and love, the one who used to smoke, drink, and dance the hootchie-coo, don't worry y'all, it's still mostly me. I'm just saying, there's a power out there that is available for all of us. And it's about the best deal I can think of!!! Like Keb Mo sings, "Hand it over, give it up, give it over/Hand it over, get on your knees and pray!"

I was watching one of my favorite movies last night, Glory. Even though I have my own copy, it came on tv and there was nothing else good on so I watched it for the umpteenth time. It's amazing, the power of the Lord: these guys are going into battle into almost sure death, and they are singing and praying and saying that b/c of the Lord, they have no fear! They're going to fight with the rifle in one hand and the Good Book in the other. And that if tomorrow is their "Great gettin' up morning", it's ok! Come on... that is awesome.