What It Feels Like

As a longtime fan of Esquire magazine, I eat up their "What It Feels Like" features. Lately I've been reading some amateur writings on the msn Men's Lifestyle boards. Fascinating!

So here's what it feels like to go to a court hearing where the doddering old fool opposing counsel is deliberately trying to use a stall strategy and attempt to price me and S out of our custody fight for our daughter: SO MUCH FUCKING AGGRAVATION YOU THINK YOUR HEAD WILL EXPLODE. Yes, nothing happened today b/c the judge did not have time to hear the dod. old fool's continuance motion, so that means that our hearing on Monday is also postponed. I was so pissed I started crying, I couldn't help it. I asked our atty. was all this time and $ just wasted on the 2 previous hearings. At first she said yes, but then said no b/c we can use all the testimony in the transcripts. However, now it looks like custody will not be reversed until we go to trial, which is either going to be in October or November. Let's count on November, maybe. Ha fucking ha.

I'm so fucking pissed, but as S always says, we can do 2 things: nothing and like it. Anyway, our atty. also says not to worry about the baby getting enrolled in school near the whore's house on Monday b/c since the whore demanded a jury trial, our atty. says juries do not care about pulling kids from their schools in order to change custody, whereas judges do care. I just told our atty. how we are bleeding dry as far as funds are concerned and they are trying to price us out of this fight since the doddering old fool is doing this for the whore pro bono and I was counting on collecting $350/month from the whore for child support beginning next month. She just put her arm around me and told me not to worry, that everything happens for a reason, that in her experience it's best not to rush these things, etc. etc. Whatever.

I'm trying to calm down but as always, it's hard. I spoke to J. Fi last night and she said that when I look back on this whole experience, I will never say that I wish I hadn't fought this custody battle... and she's right. Of course, that's b/c I am fully expecting for us to win. If it ever fucking happens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, there are some actual good news items on the front. S's paycheck today was so much $ I couldn't even believe it. His paycheck was even more than mine which is like, unheard of! So his hard work is paying off, finally. That's why I'm glad he's at a job where he gets rewarded for how hard he works, at long last, even if it is tough on him.

Ok, here's another What It Feels Like, in this case, what it feels like to get a hell of a deal. For the wedding next week I'd been wanting to get a new dress for it, since I am in the house party and all, and I never get to buy new clothes for myself anymore. I found out that the bridesmaids' dresses are black strapless. So I thought it would be cool if I could find a black strapless dress to echo the bridesmaids'. I had a coupon from a local store and hit the party dresses, but found nothing to my liking. I went to the clearance rack. Bam! A lovely black strapless dress that fit beautifully! (Size 6, yay.) It rang up with a staggering double discount, and with my coupon I got almost $60 off the total price. In fact, I'm too embarrassed to state publicly what I ended up finally paying for it. They should've just given it to me, let's just put it that way! They wouldn't have missed their measly profit! So I got another coupon and am going back maybe tonight to buy a white strapless dress I saw also on clearance. After all, I think now I deserve to buy another new dress for the rehearsal dinner! I done good yesterday, and even got a free dinner thanks to a medical students' mixer I had to work outside on the front lawn of Job #1 where they were nice enough to feed everyone.

So Job #2 is going to be a long one tomorrow since we have to open the library an hour early in order to accommodate a local congressman's Town Hall Meeting going on in our auditorium. Sunday is early shooting at the sheriff's gun range for annual qualification, then Mudflap and I will torment the malfeasants at the Mexican Flea Market, and to end the day, the latest WWE Pay per view with S and Mano.