It's Raining Men

At least, it feels like that a little bit! D.A. stayed over last night and we had a rockin' good time. We watched the old horror movie "The Fog", ate popcorn, drank a bunch of booze, and then... Today we're both covered in hiccy's. He wanted to come over again tonight but I have rehearsal this evening and after that I kinda want to enjoy some Adela time with myself. Besides he'll be over again tomorrow, as we'll join Tito J for some Karoake good times. Tito J is interviewing at my library on Thursday for a job! I need Tito J back home and yes, I am being totally selfish about that.

So then I heard from S.G. today and he asked me to hang out on Saturday night. He's also coming to the gig on Friday night and D.A. told me last night he could not get off work for my gig, to my actual relief! B/c I really want to get some S.G. action this weekend! I just hope the hiccy's wear off by Friday b/c I don't want S.G. to think I'm some kind of fast girl. Which I am! But he doesn't need to know that. I still would like to be treated like a lady by these gentlemen callers. Which is a tough balancing act, b/c D.A. said he hoped he has a future with me and that he hopes I don't have sex with anyone else ("I can't promise that," I told him--100% honesty!) and Jesus, I hope he doesn't fall for me but I kinda think he is already. But if I tell him look, I just want to be fuck-buddies and pals then will he act differently, treat me not so tenderly, not care about me anymore? Should I even not worry/care about this?

JR texted me yesterday "Hey!:)" and I immediately texted back "I thought you told me to quit texting you so how is it I keep hearing from you?" and he responded "I just wanted to see how you were doing Adela, that's all!:)" and I did not respond at all to that. Sounds suspiciously manipulative and I don't trust him. If only he knew how many new dudes I've hung out with after him!

I am beginning to think my eating habits are perhaps altered forever. I actually ate a damn SALAD today--from McDonald's. I rarely eat salads and never salads from McDonald's. But I still don't have any real consistent interest in eating, I just knew I had to eat something so I'd have energy for Job #2 and rehearsal this evening. Yesterday I ate a frozen bagel at work and then on the way to Job #2 I got a $1 double cheeseburger from Burger King and ate it with only 1/2 the bun. Then last night I ate just a tiny bit of popcorn and drank a bunch of box wine. And that is a typical day of eating for me--seriously. I was actually pretty hungry this morning so I got an Egg McMuffin from McD's and then ate the salad this afternoon, and that's all I'll eat today! The other typical thing I'll do is get the 3-strip meal from KFC that comes w/potato wedges and a biscuit--and it'll take me the entire day to eat it and that's all I'll eat that day. This has been going on since August. My only concern, since I am enjoying the weight staying off, is that I do need to eat more fruits/vegetables. Just not sure when/where I can sneak them in.

I do want to start running again and have decided to do Memorial Park as soon as I have the time, which I don't anytime soon. But that means at least I will be forced to eat bananas on days I run. I just have no patience for eating anymore. I'd rather be doing other stuff--hanging out w/gentlemen callers, listening to and playing music, planning my next road trips, going out and drinking, etc.