I Hate... To Wait...!

Arrrrgggh! The Chief has rescheduled the appt. we had this Friday to the week of the 22nd. AAARRRGGGHH! I am an impatient type, that is true. I just believe in by God getting things done! I'm a walker, not a talker. I ain't got time to talk b/c I'm so damn busy walking. I think I have gone above and beyond in proving that, my entire life!

I hate to wait!!! I got shit to do! Press releases to send out! A fundraiser to plan! Websites to launch publicly! A shooting schedule to finalize! People to keep on my payroll! Facebook pages to create! DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trying to breathe. I am just gonna have to see if my dad can call in another favor and get the camera for the weekend of July 24-26 and I am gonna have to scrape together some of my own $ to pay my dad b/c now that school is out he is unemployed and it is the right thing to do to pay him some $ for the work he's done so far and will do in July.

For real, this breathing thing... I've noticed in the past few days I have caught myself not breathing. Sitting in a chair, sitting in a car, working on the computer, etc. I am going without breathing for like, 5-6 seconds at a time and that means the stress is piling on even subconsciously. So when I catch myself doing that I try to breathe deep to fix whatever the problem is. I just got done reading this great book though and I can relate, man! It was such an enjoyable read and I totally got them, i.e., trying desperately to make a movie with no $, researching filmmaking like a madman, praying the right people believe in you...

Well, at least while I'm biding my time and sitting around on my ass waiting for the right people to give me the go-ahead, I can continue educating myself. I also need to keep thinking about my script, and as all filmmakers know, the script is a constantly evolving, living, breathing creature that you have given birth to. I also need to read, read, read more, more, more! Today I picked up this Walter Murch book (from the library, natch) and have Robert Rodriguez' Rebel Without a Crew on the way. And as always, there are more documentaries to watch, study, get inspiration from. I've noticed for example that lately over the past few years they all tend to be mostly handheld. My dad HATES handheld, but then again he's a dinosaur. Of course, I love the handheld look!