Crash. SIGH.

So last night I and my formerly beautiful car, Blue Lou, got hit on the freeway. By whom? Oh, by my esteemed S. The guy in front of him was not paying attention to the traffic in front of him that had slowed to a stop. S, behind him and in the lane next to me, in order to avoid rear-ending the guy, swerved into my lane of traffic, crashed into me, and sent me momentarily into the next lane. THANK GOD I did not hit anyone. But I couldn't believe what had just happened, and yes, I was PISSED and yes, poor S felt my wrath and today is still feeling it. He claims it was not his fault but my retort is that S was driving so fast that of course he could not stop in time in order to avoid rear-ending the other guy. Of course I'm glad that no one was hurt, and the baby was also in my car with me at the time (!!!) though she was asleep, and of course it could've been a lot worse, and ultimately I acknowledge that it is very fortunate that we hit only each other and didn't involve any other vehicles. But I told S that I hope he enjoys the way his car looks now b/c he is going to be driving it like that from now on b/c I do NOT have any $ to get it fixed. MY car, however, is definitely getting fixed, oh yessiree, Bob!!! And as it is now I'm going to have to come out of pocket for a nice big deductible with my insurance co. as well as covering my portion of a rental car for however many days it's going to take to fix my car. Money which I did NOT plan on spending on stupid driving mistakes. And in fact, I told S that part of the deductible was going to have to come out of his car fund account, so he gets to go down to the credit union next week and make a nice, fat withdrawal.

The cars were able to be driven home, and I drove my car to Job #2 today. The tire seems to be fine, and the door opens and shuts, the car just looks like total crunched-in SHIT where S swiped me. S, whose car also looks like crunched-in crap, says his car's damage is rubbing against the tire a little, so he can't drive it too much. I told him to get on the horn with his POS mom and get the $ from her if he wants it fixed, so he did and she has apparently agreed to pay for it. Good for S and his car.

So last night we were depressed (both of us) and TOTALLY pissed (me). On the plus side, the crash did wake the baby up but then she almost immediately went back to sleep so all this drama seems to have totally escaped her. Also, I told S I never, ever want to hear his cracks about women drivers ever again for the rest of our lives. Finally, I told him he can just forget about the massage I told him he could get and also about getting a bicycle for the baby. No more movies, no more DVD's, no more eating at La Mad., no more luxury items at all until we get all this mess straightened out and paid for. And he has agreed to everything I've said.

So if I get this p/t job that I interviewed for on Thursday then things might get and feel a little better. They offered me the job on the spot and said I was the most "personable" librarian they'd ever met. It sounds like an exciting opportunity for me too, in that I will be totally in charge of a small but growing library. So they asked me to let them know what it would "take" to bring me on board. I went home and discussed it with S, and on Friday I sent them an email with my schedule proposal and hourly salary requirements. I went up more than $3 from what they offered as an hourly wage so we'll see what they come back with. As usual, there's some pros and cons to the whole situation. For me, what it will boil down to is if they can offer me more $ than I'm earning here at Job #2. So we'll see! I'm worth it!

Today S is at home with the baby. They are not doing much b/c S's car is not very drivable, and also they don't have any $ to do anything. I told S to take her swimming but he said he was too depressed. I said to join the club, that I already had my crying fit last night while they were downstairs playing--and today I'm at work all day long!!! The TV guy came to look at the big tv today and was unable to fix it, so he said they'll have to cart it off to the shop next week. More inconvenience. Great.

Health/Stress Note: My facial twitch is still ongoing and my heavy sighing has increased in frequency and is occurring hourly now, it seems. Last week was a doozy at Job #1 as I was busier than I've been in a long time, hence, minimal blog posts were done.

I'm just pissed and upset and depressed. About the only thing that is getting me through the day is the group hug I got from my 2 friends here at Job #2.