...and she lost her loose bottom tooth yesterday! She apparently pulled it out herself while at J.'s house. She didn't want me to get it with my hammer. And this a.m. the tooth fairy left $4 under her pillow (I only had $1's in my wallet).
Today's dental visit went well. We gave her a prescription sedative but I can't tell if it worked or not. The only indication was I was listening to my Jupiter Coyote CD in the car and she was dancing and shaking her head like so many hippie chicks dancing to jam bands. She was pretty well-behaved for the dentist and I was so relieved b/c I am just about at my wit's end this week with her. Seriously, I almost hate to admit it, but I've had just about enough of her, precious as she is. Yesterday she said "God is dead" and I about threw a fit and got S on the horn so he could talk to her about talking bullshit like that! Then today I had to tell her like 5 times to eat her hamburger and she just always acts so bad when we're eating, ignoring her food and trying to play and fart around. I CAN'T STAND IT! I'm about ready to stick her little ass in the dining room and make it stay there until she finishes her damn food (but probably S would never let me do that). And I just get so sick of constantly reprimanding her and putting her in her place, even though that is my job as her parent. I got S on the horn again and made him talk to her b/c she was fooling around instead of eating and broke some kind of cell phone charger of S's.
The other day I told S that the baby does need to brought down a peg or 2, b/c of her attitude, and he did agree but he doesn't like the way I do it, by shaming her and making her feel bad for her shortcomings. For example, I was telling her the other day that hamburgers are made out of cows and bacon is made out of pigs and she refused to believe me!!! So I told her to go ask S, which she did and he told her I was right. I was a little pissed and told the baby that she needs to listen to me b/c I've been to school and she hasn't yet so she hasn't learned much, has she? S didn't like what he called my "negative reinforcement" so I asked him what would he do, and he just said he wouldn't do it like that. But you know, she DOES need to be ashamed of the way she acts sometimes! She NEVER needs to be acting like a little butt around us, as much as we do for her and have sacrificed for her! However, I'm willing to admit that re: the cow/pig conversation, once again, in my mind the baby was acting like the whore who is the classic sociopathic personality, pathological liar and completely uneducated and ignorant of truth and fact, so it just rubbed me the total wrong way! And I'm once again stuck having to try to teach the baby to not have an ignorant mindset and listen to us 100%.
Some good things happened today though. The dentist only charged us $435 and set up a very reasonable payment plan for us. S's so-called "mother"'s check to us appears to have arrived in the mail. And S is going to pick up the baby tonight from J.'s house so I can have a break. We have to surrender her to the whore tomorrow for the weekend and I'm sure I'll miss her (that is, if I even have time to thanks to that 24-hour sheriff's dept. class I have to take on Sat/Sun), but at this point I just need some time off to reflect on how to raise the best possible human being I can raise against all the obstacles we are all facing.
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Man I admire you so much. At least you're going through an extended thought process before you commit to one parenting strategy or another. Do you know how many moms out there act strictly on impulse rather than quality and would never even have this discussion with themselves? You should get a medal.
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