Motherhood

I finally got pic's of my friend S.'s new baby, born last week! I've been dying to hear all the birth details, so I'll probably give her a call later today. I just didn't want to bug her at first when I know she's got her hands full.

Today this mother is going up to the Shitslands to pick up my baby. S offered to go pick her up but I needed the car to take my mom to the Dr. this a.m. so that wouldn't have worked out. When we had a discussion the other night on a few things changing in our lives, I only asked him to help me go pick her up every other time, so I only have to go up there once a month. I am SO FUCKING SICK of that drive. [Of course, this should change soon anyway, since we have court on Thursday and we fully expect to get custody reversed at that time!!!]

Other things that are changing are:

• S is going to take her to work with him on some Sundays from now on. I realized recently that as much as I love the baby, I need more time to myself. I've been stretching myself too thin for way too long and in order for me not to snap, I've gotta reclaim some of my own life. So he's taking her this Sunday to work with him and dropping her off afterwards and I'm going on patrol, which I need to do anyway.
  
• S is going to take over some of the control on the custody case. I am tired of being the one who contacts our lawyer, thinks up questions/strategies, etc. I am just tired of worrying and thinking about it constantly. I'm done--especially now that we're winning anyway. Besides, that's what I'm paying the lawyer $200/hour for, to worry and think about it.
  
• No more watching tv downstairs for the baby. That is, unless we're all watching something as a family, or I'm upstairs asleep. But otherwise, I'm not letting S and the baby monopolize the downstairs anymore watching their Superman, Spiderman, etc. She has her own TV, VCR, and DVD player in her room and that's what they're there for!
  
• S is going to plan the baby's upcoming b-day party. I have to plan everything else for all of us all the time so I told him he gets to do the b-day party. I cannot worry about one more thing right now in my life.
  

I can't believe I finally reached this point, where I need S to help me take turns in picking her up. Before I insisted on doing it everytime b/c I can leave work at 5 but if S leaves his work early he gets penalized those hours' pay. It really means something when, as concerned as I am about money these days, I don't even care anymore if he misses out on a couple of hours' pay. My sanity is at stake here. Seriously.

So another fun weekend looms! Plans for Sat: Take the baby to the Art Car Parade!!! George Clinton is the parade grand marshal!!! I haven't decided if we have time to go to storytime at 11 since the parade starts downtown at 1 and we have to find parking. I'll figure it out that a.m., I'm sure. After that, not sure, maybe we'll go swimming. Sun: Mother's Day! S already knows he and the baby better plan something special for me. I'm thinking I might want us all to go to church together as a family to the early 8:30 am service, then go out for breakfast. IHOP, anyone? Mmmm, banana pancakes...