2 Gallons of Blood

I donated blood today and received a 2 Gallon mug which is how much I've given over the years. That's a lot of blood! I'm surprised it's that much though; I can't believe I've given blood a couple of dozen times in my life. It's actually been more since the blood drives at college don't count here. Anyway, I also got a t-shirt, cookies, juice, and a big ol' ice cream sundae.

Poor S was not feeling well today and he went into work late. Part of it was my fault for stressing him out about $, but all I'm doing is reporting the numbers to him. He did fill out applications the other day for part-time work down the street at the Blockbuster and a Mexican restaurant. Once again I am freaking out about the credit card payments. I have this psychological disorder where I am bound and determined to pay a whole bunch of $ on them--hundreds over the minimum payment due, in fact--even if we have to suffer for it. I can't seem to get over it. I wish someone would slap some sense into me but I don't know who would do that that I would listen to. It hurts b/c then things come up like my car needs a transmission flush at $75 and then we get down to the danger zone in our checking account and I get psychotic and panicky. I just feel so bummed about life when $ is so tight. S gets paid tomorrow but it's already all pretty much spent.

I made toaster oven bagel pizzas last night and S even ate them and enjoyed them! I had never made these before, just read about them on the Internet and amazingly they came out really good. I also made a cake b/c cake mix was on sale for .96 cents and came with free frosting. I needed a sweet in order to lift up my mood and now I've got cake for days. I'll need it!